You know, I've really given it some thought today. And I think that he needs to apologize before I agree to hang out with him again. I hate it when a guy makes me feel all upset and powerless, and in all reality, I'm the one with the power. He was all bout it bout it when he was chasing me, sending im's (I usually wasn't home) and all that shit. He was the one that was forward with me online and in person, I simply just tried to be agressive with the follow up. So yeah, he needs to apologize to me for being a fucking ass to me. You don't just go on a date with someone, make out, say that you had a great time the next day- and then don't contact them for a week. I don't give a fuck how busy he is, he could pick up the phone on his way to work and say hello.

I'm not going to feel powerless like that with a guy anymore. As I've heard people say "The girl has the pussy, so she has the power"... ya damn right! I think that we got our wires crossed, really. I think that he was looking for more of a casual thing, and I was looking to be his girlfriend. I think that he just wanted a casual dating, going out, and fooling around type of thing. Nope, that's not the way I roll, I need more than that. I deserve more than that. Once again, my fierce personality comes out, whereas my spazzy upset one was out last night. It's nice when I get back to the tough personality, the fighter type part of me.

Basically, I've come back to my senses. I'm not contacting him again, and if he doesn't contact me in a week, he's getting a seething email telling him exactly what I think of him. I'll let y'all see it before I send it, since I'm sure that it's going to be interesting. It doesn't matter that he is better looking than I am and has a better job than I do, because I am still a better person, and he needs to grovel. If he likes to chase, he can have a chase. I can be a very difficult girl, when I want to be. He should thank his lucky stars that I have some restraint, as I could run him with everything I know. Aaah, I haven't crossed the line into "evil" yet, so that's good to know.