First of all, I must bitch about this, which I found in my site referrer log. Nobody should be doing anything to convince someone to do something that they obviously don't want to do. I hope that guy's (who is from Malta) girlfriend breaks up with him when he does some stupid shit. That really pissed me off when I saw that in my log. He has no respect to his girlfriend at all, looking up something like that. Aaah, I feel better now.
I went to Columbus on Thursday night, ended up going to six bars, had a decent time. I need more friends, it sucks to go out to a dance club by myself. Everyone that I know seems to be amazed that I do so much shit by myself, like going to the bars in Columbus, or going to Vegas by myself. If I can't get anyone to do anything with me, fuck it, I'll do it by my damn self! I went to some bars that were too dead, then a bar that was too packed, then to a bar that I thought was just right. I'll be going back to the last bar that I went to, for sure. I'm happy that I found a new bar to go to up there, a bar that just opened up in January.
I just about shit when I was up at the third bar that I went to, because of who I saw. I was walking around in this bar, and then stopped dead in my tracks when I saw the bartender. I was thinking "Wow, that looks a lot like Michael... shit, that is Michael!". Yep, it sure the hell was Michael, the bartender from Athens that I had drooled over for years and years. I talked to him for a minute, and got a water. He said that he had been up there for a short time, which is cool. I knew that he had went somewhere, but I didn't think that he was in Columbus, I heard that he got detoured on his way to Vegas! He looked great, and has got better at his Tom Cruise Cocktail tricks. It was really weird, like seeing a polar bear in the desert or something. Talk about a small fucking world, right? Eighty miles from Athens, in a bar that I just happened to check out, one that I had been to a few years ago- there he was.
And the tip of the day is: Just because a guy is 6'9", doesn't mean that he has a big dick. I took hope the best looking buy in the last bar I went to, which turned out to be a dud. It used to be fun to get the cutest guy in the bar, and now it's just a bit boring. I guess that it's just getting old, I've done it too much. I don't go home with guys nearly as much as I used to, I think that I'm down to about one every couple or few months now, so that's pretty good. Anyway, the guy had a great body, and super tall- but the size of his dick wasn't even close to relative of the size of him.
I didn't even take my pants off for that one, it wasn't worth it. I just did a little something something, and started to get my shirt back on, to which he said "Are you leaving?". I said "Yep. It was nice to meet you... what was your name again?". I had forgot his name, and I was wanting to ask him, just to show him that I didn't even care enough to remember his name. That was sort of a mean thing to do, but I'm tired of being nice to guys like him. I can use them, and they can think that they are using me, but I'm going to let them know that they don't mean shit to me from now on. If it wasn't a dangerous idea, I'd just not do anything at all with the ones that have a small dick, but that's a good way to get hurt.
I'm stuck at the crossroads, I suppose. My days of playing with guys all of the time is over, but I still can't find the one that I want to be serious with. What am I supposed to do until then? I'm too nice to just date guys for free dinner and entertainment (and can afford it myself), and I'm too picky to date someone that I don't think is almost perfect (in my eyes, not by the "typical" standards), so what should I do? I'm getting too bored of playing with the boys, especially when my bad luck has been giving me the ones with the small dicks. I should probably just stay away from guys all together, I suppose. I've already given up on the dating thing, the actual search to find the guy I want to be with, so I guess that I need to probably not play with the guys anymore either. Eeeh... maybe just one more well built hung guy... -smile-
Been a loooong time since I've had some good sex, since none of the dumbfucks that I'm usually with are any good at it. It was nice back when I had Matt around, we had some good sex, and there weren't any strings to begin with. Even though he wasn't in the best of shape (and had a below average penis), he was very good at what he did, mmmhmm. Josh wasn't really that good at it, but he had a huge dick to make up for that. Eeeh, sorry about all of the dick talk again, sorry if it bothers the male readers. I'm sure that it helps to see a females perspective though, the shit that we won't directly say to y'all. We talk all kinds of shit about how you are in bed, if you suck at it, even though you probably don't think that we do.
I should be getting back into playing EQ2 by next week, I think that I'm starting to feel a little less "argh". I just can't concentrate and get into the game when I feel like this, though I do feel bad that I am away from my character and guild. The weather is starting to get better, so hopefully that part of my depression will start to go away soon. I can't believe how much better I feel when the weather is good. I might try to play some poker tonight, since I haven't done that for months and months. I've been trying to save money, but since I've been spending a little bit of money on a little bit of everything else, I guess that I could put $50 into my poker account. Oh yeah, and I just received this awesome bluetooth headset for my phone, I couldn't wait for it to be bought off of my wishlist. I think that I am going to switch my wishlist back over to Think Geek, or perhaps Tshirthell, since Amazon just doesn't seem to be cutting it these days.
Second Life is getting a bit more popular, I might get back into it again. I used to play with it a long time ago, but lost interest because of lack of people and things to do. I hear that there is a lot more to do there now, and I love the idea of the game, I really have always wanted to have a place to have a virtual life. I don't think that SL is executed very well, and that there are a lot of things that could make it better, but I guess that it is the best virtual life sim out there for now. Everyone knows that I don't have a real life, so at least I can have one on the internet. It's alright, my time to shine will eventually come. It's all just a matter of time.
I went to Columbus on Thursday night, ended up going to six bars, had a decent time. I need more friends, it sucks to go out to a dance club by myself. Everyone that I know seems to be amazed that I do so much shit by myself, like going to the bars in Columbus, or going to Vegas by myself. If I can't get anyone to do anything with me, fuck it, I'll do it by my damn self! I went to some bars that were too dead, then a bar that was too packed, then to a bar that I thought was just right. I'll be going back to the last bar that I went to, for sure. I'm happy that I found a new bar to go to up there, a bar that just opened up in January.
I just about shit when I was up at the third bar that I went to, because of who I saw. I was walking around in this bar, and then stopped dead in my tracks when I saw the bartender. I was thinking "Wow, that looks a lot like Michael... shit, that is Michael!". Yep, it sure the hell was Michael, the bartender from Athens that I had drooled over for years and years. I talked to him for a minute, and got a water. He said that he had been up there for a short time, which is cool. I knew that he had went somewhere, but I didn't think that he was in Columbus, I heard that he got detoured on his way to Vegas! He looked great, and has got better at his Tom Cruise Cocktail tricks. It was really weird, like seeing a polar bear in the desert or something. Talk about a small fucking world, right? Eighty miles from Athens, in a bar that I just happened to check out, one that I had been to a few years ago- there he was.
And the tip of the day is: Just because a guy is 6'9", doesn't mean that he has a big dick. I took hope the best looking buy in the last bar I went to, which turned out to be a dud. It used to be fun to get the cutest guy in the bar, and now it's just a bit boring. I guess that it's just getting old, I've done it too much. I don't go home with guys nearly as much as I used to, I think that I'm down to about one every couple or few months now, so that's pretty good. Anyway, the guy had a great body, and super tall- but the size of his dick wasn't even close to relative of the size of him.
I didn't even take my pants off for that one, it wasn't worth it. I just did a little something something, and started to get my shirt back on, to which he said "Are you leaving?". I said "Yep. It was nice to meet you... what was your name again?". I had forgot his name, and I was wanting to ask him, just to show him that I didn't even care enough to remember his name. That was sort of a mean thing to do, but I'm tired of being nice to guys like him. I can use them, and they can think that they are using me, but I'm going to let them know that they don't mean shit to me from now on. If it wasn't a dangerous idea, I'd just not do anything at all with the ones that have a small dick, but that's a good way to get hurt.
I'm stuck at the crossroads, I suppose. My days of playing with guys all of the time is over, but I still can't find the one that I want to be serious with. What am I supposed to do until then? I'm too nice to just date guys for free dinner and entertainment (and can afford it myself), and I'm too picky to date someone that I don't think is almost perfect (in my eyes, not by the "typical" standards), so what should I do? I'm getting too bored of playing with the boys, especially when my bad luck has been giving me the ones with the small dicks. I should probably just stay away from guys all together, I suppose. I've already given up on the dating thing, the actual search to find the guy I want to be with, so I guess that I need to probably not play with the guys anymore either. Eeeh... maybe just one more well built hung guy... -smile-
Been a loooong time since I've had some good sex, since none of the dumbfucks that I'm usually with are any good at it. It was nice back when I had Matt around, we had some good sex, and there weren't any strings to begin with. Even though he wasn't in the best of shape (and had a below average penis), he was very good at what he did, mmmhmm. Josh wasn't really that good at it, but he had a huge dick to make up for that. Eeeh, sorry about all of the dick talk again, sorry if it bothers the male readers. I'm sure that it helps to see a females perspective though, the shit that we won't directly say to y'all. We talk all kinds of shit about how you are in bed, if you suck at it, even though you probably don't think that we do.
I should be getting back into playing EQ2 by next week, I think that I'm starting to feel a little less "argh". I just can't concentrate and get into the game when I feel like this, though I do feel bad that I am away from my character and guild. The weather is starting to get better, so hopefully that part of my depression will start to go away soon. I can't believe how much better I feel when the weather is good. I might try to play some poker tonight, since I haven't done that for months and months. I've been trying to save money, but since I've been spending a little bit of money on a little bit of everything else, I guess that I could put $50 into my poker account. Oh yeah, and I just received this awesome bluetooth headset for my phone, I couldn't wait for it to be bought off of my wishlist. I think that I am going to switch my wishlist back over to Think Geek, or perhaps Tshirthell, since Amazon just doesn't seem to be cutting it these days.
Second Life is getting a bit more popular, I might get back into it again. I used to play with it a long time ago, but lost interest because of lack of people and things to do. I hear that there is a lot more to do there now, and I love the idea of the game, I really have always wanted to have a place to have a virtual life. I don't think that SL is executed very well, and that there are a lot of things that could make it better, but I guess that it is the best virtual life sim out there for now. Everyone knows that I don't have a real life, so at least I can have one on the internet. It's alright, my time to shine will eventually come. It's all just a matter of time.
posted by Unknown @ 1:47 AM
4 Comments:
Pardon me, being a bit intoxicated, I feel the need to post a comment.
You seem to be very hypocritical, and I wonder how you justify that.
You express anger at a guy who is solely trying to get head from a woman, then later go on to talk of how you use men for sex without remembering his name. Now, I know that we men have a horrid reputation for using women for physical needs, but, aren't you just as lowly as the average man is? Using a man for his body to do you sexual favors?
You then turn around and express rage that a man would do such a thing to a person, when by your own admission, you do it (not as frequent, you noted, to your credit) as well. What seperates you from such a man?
If you assume men do this frequently, what do you add to the image that women present by bedding a guy without knowing his name?
Granted, you said you didn't sleep with him, but, still, you did enough to give your gender a bad image that only lends credence to the idea that it is okay for a man to seduce a woman for reasons of the 'head', not of the heart.
Honestly, as a man who keeps the idea of a woman on a very high pedastal (I might mispell things in my drunken state) and worship them as gifts from god, you should be a bit ashamed.
No offense to you at all, it is indeed your life with which to do as you please and I would never tell you how to live out your time in your mortal coil. But I felt the need to point out things that may better your desire to see yourself, as a woman, bettered by men.
It's a little bit different, men don't mind being used for sex, especially when it's obvious that is what the situation is. And when I'm having sex, it isn't doing much for me. I only have an orgasm like 1% of the time, so hardly ever. So really, it isn't a sexual favor at all for me, I'm not getting anything out of it. And I don't let anyone go down on me unless I'm actually going out with them, so that isn't an option.
It's really complicated, that I must admit. Not all men are like you, most of the men I have ran into aren't anything like you, actually. I'd like to find the guys that think that women should be worshiped... that's the whole problem now.
I'm a bit more sober, so this might be a bit better.
I can promise you there are men in this world who would be greatly hurt by being used for sex.
That comes from personal experience, and it's not very fun. Sure, it's the stereotype that all guys want to bang away and there is proof for that stereotype. There is also the stereotype that women who frequent bars are looking for cheap fucks with no strings attached, etc. etc. and there is a reason for that also.
Just something to think about.
I try not to ever say that all guys are alike, because I know that not everyone is the same. However, the guys that I run across all seem to be the same, it just turns out that way for some reason. I understand and appreciate your point. Don't think that I think that all guys are alike though, because that isn't the case.
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