I just got done watching Antitrust, which I haven't seen for the longest time, so it seems. I watched it because I'm a big geek, and also because Ryan Phillipe is fucking hot as hell. He has the most beautiful mouth... mmm... golden boy. Oh er, uh... I also like how the villans name (who also looks like Bill Gates) is "Gary Winston", which if you use the first two letters of his last name "Wi", could stand for William- and if you use the first two letters of his first name "Ga", could stand for Gates. I loved it when that movie came out, I actually saw it in the theater. It's rare that I actually go out to the movies, so you know it had to mean something to me!

He happens to also be in the movie "Crash", which beat out "Brokeback Mountain" in some fucked up way at the Oscars. I need to download Crash, so I can see how the hell that shit happened, because I fucking loved Brokeback. I know I'll enjoy a movie about gay cowboys more than I'll like one that deal with race relations though, so that's just a given. Because of obvious reasons and also because I can't fucking still believe that it's 2006, and race is still a fucking issue in this damn country. Seems like we would have got past that a long ass time ago, you know? We've been working on the gay thing a lot recently, and it's getting more accepted by people, but you know what I mean- I don't need to go off on a rant about that.

Speaking of race issues, don't forget to check out "Black. White.", because that promises to be interesting. I'm going to record it, since I'll be at work at 10pm (est) when it's on tonight (Wednesday). I hope that the racist folks watch it and see what's really up. My theory is that I don't like anyone who is a thug... or a redneck... or just stupid and ignorant in the first place. I don't care what color you are, you're just a person to me, until you start acting like a jackass. If you're a black gangbanger, I'm not going to hang out with you or like you. If you're a white nazi ass bastard, I'm not going to hang out with or like you either. If you're an alien from Mars, and you're stupid as fuck, I still am not going to like you.

Everything was great on Monday night and Tuesday during the day, I feel so much better now. I kicked ass at pool on Monday night, along with my pool friend, who happens to be the second best pool player in Athens. We make a great team, it's great to school people. We played from probably about 9pm till 1:30am, we played until we couldn't stand to play anymore. I also found out on Monday night that army guy fucked me over because he had found out that he had to go to Afganistan for a year, and he didn't want to put myself or himself through some big shit if we got married, hence the whole losing contact with me on purpose and getting cold feet thing. Yeah, he did it in a fucked up way, but I see where he was coming from. We're still going to talk, he's still over there right now, and will be until December.

I really was thinking about taking a trip to Vegas at the beginning of next month, or the end of this one, but I think that I should just wait until my birthday. I don't want to go too overboard, and we're a little shorthanded at work right now, and my car insurance is due next month. I pay the insurance on the new car every six months, so that'll be an extra $207 next month. I really want to get away, but maybe I should just take a couple of days off and hang out in Columbus or something. I would go to Windsor or something, but you know how I fucking hate driving. Eh, I think that I'm alright though. I've learned a lot recently, and feel so much better about myself. My birthday is in five months, I think that I can hang on until then.