They finally got the results from Chris Penn's death, and it wasn't a drug overdose. I had such a wave of relief come over me when I read that before I went to work. It was like I almost felt at peace or something, because I had worried and wondered about it. I don't know why it meant so much to me, and I think that it's very strange that it did. He was a great actor, and seemed like such a nice and cool person from what I saw in interviews. I guess that I just wanted to have some "faith in humanity restored" by hearing that it wasn't a drug overdose, and that he wasn't up to his old ways. I got some points back because of him, so thanks to him and rest in peace.

If someone isn't very good with grammar and gets the wrong words in place of others, does that mean that they're stupid? I was talking to a new boy (whom I am going to go out on a date with tonight, Wednesday night), and I really don't think that it was a typo... he said "Night in shining armor". Maybe he missed hitting the K, but I really doubt it, I think that it was just because he really didn't know that it began with a K. The more I talk to him online, the less I want to invest any time in him, simply because of that. I haven't determined exactly how stupid he is yet, which isn't good. He did a couple of errors like that in our conversation the other day. On top of that, I just found out that he's broke and owes a lot of money to his mom, and is borrowing his grandmothers car. That's never good, someone that is broke and doesn't even have their own car.

Money isn't a big issue, but he lives in Springfield, which means that he needs to have money to meet me somewhere or come see me. We'll see, I guess it just depends on how much I like him when I meet him. He's ready for a commitment, even though he's only 20 (will be 21 in July). I really don't think that he's bullshitting about that. I need to find out why he's like that, he said that his family was cool and everything. I thought that maybe he wanted his own family because his sucked growing up, but that doesn't seem to be the case. I'll give him the third degree, without him even knowing it, so it's all good.

If this doesn't work out, I'm giving up for a while. I'm tired of guys not calling me back, or guys using me, or guys being fucking idiots. I guess it wouldn't be so bad to give up for a while, even though I really pictured myself being married in the next one and a half years. Pssh, I guess things don't end up like they thought we would when we were in our teens. My guy will eventually find me... I guess. About this kid though, he seems a little too anxious about everything. Saying stuff like "I really want to make this work" and stuff. Yeah, I haven't even met him yet. He has some major malfunction somewhere, I'm sure of it. They all seem to... but especially him.

Hope everyone had a good V-day, mine was alright. I was at work all day, didn't even think about it until I heard something about it on the XM Radio. My first sober V-day, wow. It was quick and painless, but only because I worked. I finally fixed up my wishlist, since I needed to update it with stuff that I really want now. I have a lot of EQ2 stuff on there, since I'm all hardcore about that now. -smile-

I ordered some stuff from Tiger Direct, since I got their credit card type dilly. I got a keychain usb drive (1 gig), one of the Marilyn Monroe boxed sets, another film that has Marilyn in it, and some glowy blue speakers for my computer. I have speakers in this monitor, and they suck some major ass. Plus the speakers glowed blue, so that shit was perfect.

I guess that I'm going to have the date, and try to be objective about it. Not sure what I'm going to do on Thursday, which is my other day off this week. I went out on Sunday night and had a great time playing pool with the second best pool player in Athens... until he got drunk and got the guts up to start trying to mack on me at the end of the night. Everything was super cool up until that point, so I can't complain too much. And I am one of the 2 best female pool players in town, he says. He isn't sure if the other girl is better or if I am better, though he says that it has to be a pretty tight race. Yay, can you believe that? I'm either the first or second best female pool player in Athens, which really makes me all excited.

Anyway, I'm going to get out of here for now. The EQ2 server comes back up in thirty minutes, since they have a server check every weeknight (for an hour), which drives me insane. I'll have to show y'all a picture of the new barbell that I got for my ear, it's super neat looking. Bleh, I've noticed that the more unhappy I am, the more money I spend. Which has really been obvious recently, since I've been spending quite a bit more than I usually do. Hell, I might go to Parkersburg or Columbus shopping on Thursday. It gives me a good excuse to drive my Stealth, so it's all good.