I thought that I would post a little before I go back to watching tv, since I will be spending the rest of the night playing Everquest 2. I haven't played the game yet tonight, since I've been doing some other stuff on here and watching some tv. I had a date Wednesday night, one that went a little too well, apparently. I had a good time, and he seems like a good kid, but the text messages I got the next day were a little freaky. I'll quote them, since I still have them. Keep in mind that these came to my cellphone the next day, the day after I first met him in person, which was a week after we started talking on the internet. Here we go: "Hey babe just wanted to say i am falling more and more in love with you with each passing day" and "Not to be jumping the gun but i know you are the one". Um... yeah.
I don't even know where to start on that. Guys just aren't like that, especially guys that are 20 years old. I haven't determined how stupid he is yet, but he seems to be reasonably smart, he's not a complete idiot. He's cute, that's for sure. And he seems to be sorta kinda driven, though not too much. He's not suepr hot or anything, but he's pretty much my type, maybe not as cute as the ones I usually go for. But holy hell, there has to be something wrong with him. He even waited up for me the other night when I didn't appear on the internet since i was playing my game all night. He finally gave up and went to bed, not sure what time that was. But yeah, a bit freaky.
I would have probably married Josh after the month that we were together, if he would have asked me. But that's different, since I'm a girl and we were together a month, and I'm older. Girls get attached faster (usually), and since I'm older- I really want to get married, I've had my time to play. But I feel that I'm having a hard time making an emotional connection to anyone right now, because I've been dicked around so much in the last year and a half, by Matt and Josh. I put my heart into both of them, and they just threw it away, like it was nothing. Fuck all that, I don't have the desire to speak to either of them ever again, especially Josh. So that's another reason the kid freaked me out, cause he got all lovey so quickly, which is just strange.
Who keeps coming here that uses the Charter (internet) service out of WV? I know that you have to live close to me, and I was just wondering if you really knew me. A little strange when someone from around here comes to check on the site and they don't say anything. I know who one of the people is, but there appears to be more than one person from around here that visits here quite often, especially recently. Anyway, I'm just going to give up on dating, I think that's what is going to happen. I'm tired of searching, tired of trying, tired of dealing with people. I think that I just want to be left alone and not be bothered with it all, you know?
I don't even know where to start on that. Guys just aren't like that, especially guys that are 20 years old. I haven't determined how stupid he is yet, but he seems to be reasonably smart, he's not a complete idiot. He's cute, that's for sure. And he seems to be sorta kinda driven, though not too much. He's not suepr hot or anything, but he's pretty much my type, maybe not as cute as the ones I usually go for. But holy hell, there has to be something wrong with him. He even waited up for me the other night when I didn't appear on the internet since i was playing my game all night. He finally gave up and went to bed, not sure what time that was. But yeah, a bit freaky.
I would have probably married Josh after the month that we were together, if he would have asked me. But that's different, since I'm a girl and we were together a month, and I'm older. Girls get attached faster (usually), and since I'm older- I really want to get married, I've had my time to play. But I feel that I'm having a hard time making an emotional connection to anyone right now, because I've been dicked around so much in the last year and a half, by Matt and Josh. I put my heart into both of them, and they just threw it away, like it was nothing. Fuck all that, I don't have the desire to speak to either of them ever again, especially Josh. So that's another reason the kid freaked me out, cause he got all lovey so quickly, which is just strange.
Who keeps coming here that uses the Charter (internet) service out of WV? I know that you have to live close to me, and I was just wondering if you really knew me. A little strange when someone from around here comes to check on the site and they don't say anything. I know who one of the people is, but there appears to be more than one person from around here that visits here quite often, especially recently. Anyway, I'm just going to give up on dating, I think that's what is going to happen. I'm tired of searching, tired of trying, tired of dealing with people. I think that I just want to be left alone and not be bothered with it all, you know?
posted by Unknown @ 12:27 AM
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I know what you mean about being dicked around by other people. I've been screwed over by so many women that I've been singl for several years. Anymore peolpe jump into relationships to quickly, get married, then divorced less thana year later. Though in retrospect I do miss have a girlfriend to spend time with.
I don't really mind the falling in love and getting married quickly part, it's just the whole "falling in love" with me thing that he said the NEXT DAY that bothers me. Sure, if I fell in love with someone in a few months, I would marry them, no question. But you can't possibly be falling in love with someone from meeting them one time.
Yep, that's why I'm all avoidy with him now, that was just too strange. I think that I've only talked to him over IM once since then. He's left messages other times, but I just don't reply. I hate to be like that, but I also hate to have to be mean to someone, you know?
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