I went up to Athens on Wednesday night, since I hadn't been out for a while. Saw a boy up there that I had met before, uptown at a sub shop, he was working there. I met him about 6 months ago, or somewhere around that. When I was walking through Pawpurr's, he waved at me, and I didn't remember him at first. After he mentioned it, I remembered, since I was hitting on him because I thought that he was cute the first time I met him. However, he and his girlfriend had just broke up at that time, and they were maybe going to get back together- so I backed off of him. But he remembered me, and I started talking to him and his two friends.

I decided to get out of there and go to my other bar, the one where I play pool. I told him where I would be, and told him to come up there at any time. He said that he and his friends were going to go see some "noise band" at another bar, and that he would see me later. He came over a couple of times while his friends were watching the band, since the other bar was right down the street. Actually, all of the bars in Athens are just right down the street from each other, literally. Anyway, the last time he came over, we decided to go to another bar. He suggested The Union, even though I didn't think that he seemed like the type of person that goes there.

We talked for a long time, and couldn't believe that it was 2am, when we decided that I would take him back to his place. He was rather shy while we were talking, which he admitted to, and we had tons of good conversation. But then when we got back to his driveway, it was another story. He sure the fuck wasn't shy then, let me tell you! As I was figeting with my purse and steering wheel, he leaned over and kissed me, and it all went crazy from there. I finally broke my car in, I'll put it that way, -wink-. Anyway, he was alright, though his schlong wasn't all that big- maybe around slightly below average. He is very cute, half phillipino, though I thought that he was latino at first. So I guess I kinda had an asian guy, does a halfling count? I guess I'll sorta count that, though I still need a full asian to add to my collection.

He said that he would call me on Sunday, though I'm not sure where this whole thing is going to go. I think that I've already sort of lost interest in dating him, which is rather weird. I didn't used to care if I slept with the guy on the first night or not, I would still consider dating him, but I think that my old age is changing that rule. It was good to find out penis size, but I'll already experienced everything now, there isn't anywhere to go. I should have probably stopped the whole thing, and I was a little hesitant, but it has been a little while and I did want to break my car in. Eh, we'll see. He said that he isn't the player type, but it's hard to believe a word that comes out of most guys mouths, so we'll see. He's only 21, but we'll see if he's mature for his age or not.

I was with a guy several months ago that wasn't supposed to be the player type, and was supposed to call me, but never did. I really think that I liked that one, so since then I haven't been trying to get too attached or to even expect anything out of these boys. I don't know, things used to be different than they are now, for some reason. We'll see, though I really don't think that this boy can hang with the things that I want and need to do. I don't think that there are many people that can, especially younger guys.

I just got done watching The Good Girl on tv, since I was running through the channels and saw Jake Gyllenhaal on it, and had to stop to watch him. He's very cute, also on Brokeback Mountain, so see it! But anyway, I hated how the movie ended, bleh. I thought that the movie was going to be cool, but I really hated how the whole thing went. Wouldn't have normally watched it, but didn't feel like getting on the internet yet, so I decided to sit down through it and watch yummy Jake. If you've seen it, leave a note in the comments and tell me what you thought of it. I totally forgot that Jake was just acting, he was so good with his character. I love it when actors are do good that you forget who they are, and are only seeing their character.

More idiots on the personals site, as usual. I'm about ready to give up on that place. People seem to freak out when I don't write back to them, or when I give them a short response. It's called: get a damn hint, people! I don't like being mean or crushing anyones selfesteem, so I can't just write back and tell them that I'm not interested, and not give a reason. Or if someone clearly writes to me, even though I clearly state in the profile that I'm not looking for someone that is of their type, I would hate to write back and yell at them for that. I get emails all of the time with the subject line of "Why haven't you wrote back to me yet?" or someone said "Is that all you're going to say after I wrote all of that to you?", since I gave them pretty much a one line response.

I guess that since it's a free personals site, you're going to get more idiots on there. I didn't ever think about the fact that pay personals probably root out some of the idiots, since they won't pay or can't afford to pay for the service. I might need to switch back over to a different site, though I think that all is about hopeless in that scene. There just isn't anywhere to meet anyone around here. I have the rednecks in my town, the young college students in Athens, and the fucking morons of the online personals. Bleh, how in the hell am I supposed to meet a decent fella? I'm never going to get married, not at this rate. I've been alright by myself for a long time, but that's getting a little bit old, and so am I.

I could have went out tonight, but I was way too tired. I decided to stay here and chill tonight, which was probably a good idea. Getting to bed a little early will be good for me, even if it is just a couple of hours earlier. Not to mention to huge hickey on my neck, which means it will be turtleneck city for the next few weeks. I didn't think that it was going to be that bad, but when I got home and saw it in the mirror, I literally gasped outloud. After it gets a little more subdued, I'll be able to cover it with makeup, but it's going to be rough until then.

I do have someone else in mind, but he's really young, so I'm not even going to get into the whole story there. Nothing will probably come of that, so it isn't worth mentioning more than that, until if and when something happens. He's only nineteen, which I would go out with, but boys nowadays just aren't ready for the things that I want- especially at that age. And the older ones just aren't that attractive to me, unless they're David Duchovny or Robert Downey Jr, which are very hot for their age. Especially David, he's going to be 46 this year (his birthday is August 7, two days after mine), can you fucking believe that? I've never wanted to fuck someone that old so badly, heh heh. This is a slightly older (four years) photo (best one I saw in the short time I look, he's sometimes not very photogenic), but damn, look at him!

It just seems like this place is full of dead end streets, you know? And I've been down a lot of streets, and none of them have went anywhere. I'm running out of options here, I really am. I'm convinced that I'm not going to meet anyone decent until I get away from here. There isn't anything here for me, espcially in that department. There's a few news items that I wanted to talk about, but I don't even feel like it now. I just want to relax and play Everquest 2, that's all. I'm doing a quest on there, but I might not even finish that, since there's a lot of stress that goes with the epic type of quests. Bleh, time to relax and reflect... there's a lot that needs to be done in that department.

Edit:Oh, hell no! Some little thug wrote to me on the personals site, and I had to come on here again to tell you what he said. He's 21, so he should be old enough not to talk like a fourteen year old, but he does anyway. He's a mixed black/white guy, which looks black and has braids and blue eyes. Wasn't actually a bad looking kid, but the thug look loses a million points with me. And he has a samn pic of Tupac with Suge Knight & Snoop on his profile with his other pics... brotha please! Anyway, here is what he (sooo articulately) wrote:

"Whud Uhp Mah!
Ohm FeeliN' Ya Style U R Really Sexxi!
Hit Me Bacc...C-Ya!"

I'm going to have to say it again, especially since it amused some people- Are you fucking kidding me? This little fucker apparently didn't read a damn thing that was in my fucking profile. And believe me, my profile is filled with so much shit that I don't see how they cannot possibly think that I'm a bitch. I might post my whole profile on here next time, just so you can see how retarded these guys are, since most of them go against everything that I've said. I can't stand it, I have to write back to this one and ask him if he even read a damn word of my profile.

By the way, I made the text darker on here, since I know how much it sucks to read light text on a black background. I know I always hate that when I go somewhere and they have a black bg with white text, although my next was a light gray before this. Tell me if this is too hard for y'all to read. I can read it perfectly fine, but just want to make sure that everyone else can.