Holy shit, I can't even believe what Nip/Tuck did with The Carver. I can't believe who it is, rather. It's what I kinda expected, but not really. It was certainly a twist on a twist, basically. It was a bit more complex than I thought it would be, that's for sure. Finally, all of The Carver's back story was revealed. Though for the second part of the reveal, I kinda got a feeling about a character, just because of a look that they had on their face at one point. Psychology stuff, you know how it is. But the most amazing part was the whole back story that they created for The Carver.

I am a little dissapointed in the finale and who The Carver is though, though I don't really want to mention anything else about it right now. I want to give everyone a change to watch it, just incase y'all were out tonight and don't get to watch until until sometime tomorrow, if you recorded it or something. I'll talk about it on Wednesday night or something, just to make sure that everyone catches up on it. As far as the rest of the finale, they left a couple of unanswered things, including one thing that has to do with The Carver. Hmm, guess I won't talk about that right now either! Maybe we can talk about it in the comments section of this post, mmk? If anyone doesn't want to know anything, don't look in the comments section if anyone actually posts a comment, just to be safe.

I had a really busy day yesterday (Monday). I had something very important to do for one of my friends in the morning (gasp, yeah I woke up at 10am), then I had to go on a date in Columbus, then I had to pick a friend of mine up at the airport- one that has come in for an Xmas visit. Yep, a very packed day it was. I still didn't end up going to bed until six am, I don't know how I lasted through all of that, must have been on my third wind by then. I got to come home from work uber early, since nothing was going on. I'd rather work tomorrow and later in the week for a few different reasons, and I didn't mind having this evening off. However, I didn't go out anywhere, and there were a few things that I could have been doing.

I decided to stay here, check out stuff on the computer, and watch Nip/Tuck first hand. (Still feels like I was watching a totally different tv show at the end when they did the reveal an hour and a half into it) I was going to record it, (and still did so I could watch it later) as I had planned on going out, I set the recorder the previous night (er, morning) before I went to bed. I really thought that I would be going out tonight, but I was just too exhausted to do so, I just didn't feel like fucking with it. I have some interesting stuff that I could be doing, and some other interesting stuff that I could probably try to get into, but it really fucked me up by not sleeping all day on my day off. I usually catch up on my sleep on those days, since my insomnia prevents me from getting enough sleep. Damn, I need some fucking Lunesta.

I still can't get over the Nip/Tuck finale though, there was so much going on! Especially with the guessing of "Is it? Is it not? Ok, maybe it isn't. Well, maybe then it is." and then "What the fuck?". It was kinda clever... aaah, I wish that I could talk about it some more, that will come soon though! I just can't get my mind off of it. Sadder still is the fact that there isn't going to be another new episode for a long ass time, you know how FX is with that shit. Hell, Rescue Me isn't going to be back until fucking June, can you believe that shit? That's a long fucking time, I don't know what the hell is wrong with them, that probably means that Nip/Tuck won't be back again until August or September, like last year. So cruel to make us wait like that, especially after such a big reveal and some other unanswered questions.

Alright alright, enough of that for now! My date went alright, though it seems that he and I are on totally different work and sleep schedules. He's mostly awake and works during the day, and I'm mostly awake and work during the evening. He works during the week, and I work always during the weekends and part of the week. He has a pretty much set schedule, and my schedule is all over the place. It's probably not going to work out, but it's probably for the best anyway. I probably shouldn't get attached to someone before I leave, they might be the type of person that wouldn't want to leave with me or something. I have the worst luck, so I probably shouldn't date anyone at all.

I just want this whole moving thing to work out, even though my grandmother is against me on it. She's never supportive of me, not anymore. She used to be supportive when I was younger, but when I got older and started fucking up and not finishing things, she quit the supporting. On top of that, she thinks that I should be afraid of everything, and that Las Vegas is such a tough town. And it probably is a tough town, but every fucking town that isn't like the fucking Mayberry that we live in should be expected to be tough! Columbus is tough even, and I used to hang out up there a hella lot more than I do now. I refuse to be afraid of anything, a person can't live their life like that! You can't hide from everything, you know? That's not really living afterall, if you do that.

I know that I can make it out there, as long as I take enough money with me to start out. I have wanted to do some things in the past pretty bad, like be a cop, but it was a physical thing that was limiting me from completing the police academy. The whole moving to Vegas thing is a totally mental thing, and I can do anything that's mental, that's my thing. If it's something that my body won't let me do, that's another thing. But as long as my body can stand it, and I don't think that it's dangerous in that respect of my body not being able to handle it, then I can do it. And I want to get the fuck out of here so bad, and Vegas is the best place that I have ever been to, exactly my type of town.

I'm not ever going to be anything or do anything as long as I'm here, though I think that I have perhaps mentioned that before. The point is, everyone that stays here turns into a nobody that fades away. I'm going to do something, be someone. I'm going to be the owner of the cool club, or the girl that kicks all of the boys asses in poker (not going to gamble when I first get out there though), or the cool bartender or card dealer at the bad ass casino. I don't want to be the person from the town that nobody has heard of, doing a job that sucks and doesn't pay very much, and being around other people that don't have enough ambition to get out of this hellhole. Or know better, not smart enough to even know how bad this place sucks.

Bleeeh, am I leaving anything out? Hmm, I don't remember if I've talked about everything that has been going on or not. Probably so, I can't think of much else right now, though I am really tired. I'm glad that I posted the Stewie Slingblade file, as sixty people have downloaded it so far! However, none of the bastards have left a comment or emailed a thank you note thanking me for the fact that I made it and posted it on here. Anyway, I'm apparently getting a little cranky, so I think that I will get out of here for now. Perhaps call my aquaintance that lives out in Vegas, see how things are out there at this second.